TO-DO's

My To-Do list continues to grow and grow and grow.....

HELP!!!!!

First..it's my own fault I take on every project handed to me...why? because it's a security...a just in case...next month I may not have those projects to help with bills...or it could give me extra $ to help with family stuff...there's always a reason.

But for some reason...and I know it's God...things have gone completely nuts in the past few weeks.  Work keeps comming in.  I'm finishing up alterations that have been consistent.  I got an e-mail for a fashion show in Aug that I didn't know I was doing which is funny but not funny at the same time I am now creating 15-25 looks...in about a month in a half ....eek.  I've got two weddings...one wedding dress and the other has 18 bridesmaids dresses...(yes re-read that last sentence...the number is NOT a typo)...and then there is Girlie Goodness at the end of July and again in Oct for our first craft show.....to top it off...I still have my mommy duties take care of the three babies...keep them happy and having fun...clean the house....try to remember lunch and dinner..mark off our summer list of things to do....

That's just for now...and that doesn't include my personal to-do's that I want to do...like make new pillows for our living room couch, or McKenzie's new curtains, or the new curtains for the Kitchen...I'll just stop...my head is spinning.

SO...so much has happened since my last post Alex is now five months and rolling over front to back and almost back to front. LOVE HIM!!!

Tyler is on his way to being THREE next Monday on the 4th of July...LOVE HIM!!! the shirt says it all :)

And...McKenzie has a Chore Chart!  We have been battling this for WAY to long!  I ask her to clean her room or fold her clothes repeatedly has become annoying and I'm sounding like a broken record so...yesterday we sat down and wrote out her chores she has 6 daily chores on of them being something that she likes to do "READ" for 30 min.  I have it up in the kitchen and she has to mark off each task as she completes it.  At the end of the day she gets money and at the end of the week she will tithe 10% for church.  I was shocked yesterday to see her so eager to finish her chores and mark them off each time.  It's funny how $ can change so much.  BUT at the same time McKenzie has some BAD habits that we are trying like crazy to break...so while she is earning money...if I catch her doing one of her BAD habits she has to pay me.  I don't keep the money I put it in a coffee cup above the sink she'll get it back when those habits stop! But I still LOVE her!!!

I have so much to blog about...but finding the time to do it is another thing.  I'm doing it in the morning right now..seems to be working ok before the day gets rolling...we'll give that a try maybe I'll get to daily posting...maybe :)
XOXO Suzanne

In a RUT!!!!

But I am determined to get out
somehow....
I've been carrying this weight on my shoulders for about six years now maybe a little longer.  It's concerning our other house...and I wont go into details.
I think however that we are almost done with this situation.
The process has been long, hard, stressful, and given me a since of anger that I have never had before...
and I don't know how to handle it.
I've been burned...we've been burned because we tried to help.  I want to scream that "ITS NOT FAIR" but life isn't fair God didn't promise fair.  He did promise to stay by our sides and get us through times like these.
This situation has affected everything for me and I don't like it...I want it to be done.
I'm ready to walk away and try to forgive...but I can't forget...I won't.
I want to create again with a since of carefree freedom...without worries
And I will starting today!
I am taking a deep breath...knowing that God will take care of this, I know that he will comfort my heart in this time and sooth this anger that I hold.
I am stronger because of this...we are stronger because of this.  I am thankful for that.
I truly feel that my husband and I could get through anything that you put in front of us...we've already been through so much.
I LOVE HIM!!!!
I am looking forward to fathers day...I'm taking the kids shopping!  I can't wait to see what they pick out they are so much fun and I LOVE THEM!!!!
Sorry for my pity party..I'm done...I have to be...I don't like where this situation have taken me.
I am going to have a good day today!
I am going to get things done!
I'm going to start with making coffee...then maybe I'll have the energy to get the ball rolling :)
XOXO Suzanne