In a RUT!!!!

But I am determined to get out
somehow....
I've been carrying this weight on my shoulders for about six years now maybe a little longer.  It's concerning our other house...and I wont go into details.
I think however that we are almost done with this situation.
The process has been long, hard, stressful, and given me a since of anger that I have never had before...
and I don't know how to handle it.
I've been burned...we've been burned because we tried to help.  I want to scream that "ITS NOT FAIR" but life isn't fair God didn't promise fair.  He did promise to stay by our sides and get us through times like these.
This situation has affected everything for me and I don't like it...I want it to be done.
I'm ready to walk away and try to forgive...but I can't forget...I won't.
I want to create again with a since of carefree freedom...without worries
And I will starting today!
I am taking a deep breath...knowing that God will take care of this, I know that he will comfort my heart in this time and sooth this anger that I hold.
I am stronger because of this...we are stronger because of this.  I am thankful for that.
I truly feel that my husband and I could get through anything that you put in front of us...we've already been through so much.
I LOVE HIM!!!!
I am looking forward to fathers day...I'm taking the kids shopping!  I can't wait to see what they pick out they are so much fun and I LOVE THEM!!!!
Sorry for my pity party..I'm done...I have to be...I don't like where this situation have taken me.
I am going to have a good day today!
I am going to get things done!
I'm going to start with making coffee...then maybe I'll have the energy to get the ball rolling :)
XOXO Suzanne

HELP JOPLIN MO!!!!

The tornado's in the Midwest have been nothing but flat out scary!!!
I remember when we use to here the sirens go off and we would casually gather and walk down the stairs.
Not anymore...
Now I feel more like a drill Sergeant yelling GO GO GO...GET DOWN STAIRS NOW!!!!

Joplin MO was hit hard last Sunday May 22.  I have a friend down there from high school. Thankfully she and her family are ok and so is their home.  But others weren't so lucky.

The stories are giving me nightmares and God has made my heart restless.  I need to help in anyway that I can. 

So we are offering our Criss Cross Tank at WHOLESALE COST via our ETSY shop.  50% of the proceeds will go to Joplin, all we keep is the cost for fabric everything else is donated.

ETSY SHOP

It can be worn paired back with another tank if you are not comfortable showing your bare back.

We will be doing this for two weeks or until supplies run out which ever comes first. 

HELP US HELP THEM!!!!!

THANK YOU!!!

XOXO Suzanne



4 Months and Growing Pains!!!!

My littlest Alexander just turned four months yesterday without my permission :(...I can't believe that time has passed by so fast.  He's getting so big and is so stinking cute!!!! I think that I finally got one that looks a little like me...they all look like their dad...and that's not a bad thing ;)

McKenzie keeps complaining a lot lately about her feet hurting, her back hurting...and so on.  I have a heat pack that she keeps stealing so I made her one of her own I will be putting these in my ETSY shop and they will be available for Girlie Goodness.  These are our aches and pains packs...perfect for those growing kiddos heat up for 1-2 min in the microwave.  Filled with natural grains and outer shell is removable for washing if needed.

Owls for girls 

Astronauts and Aliens for Boys

XOXO Suzanne

What a day!

I feel HORRIBLE!!!

It's allergies..but it sucks big time.
Headache, runny nose, cough, itchy throat, I CAN"T BREATHE!!!

It's because of the cottonwood out back in my neighbors yard.  A few days ago it looked like it was snowing outside with all those annoying little fuzzys flying around.  I knew it was just a matter of time until my body started its reaction to it. UGH!!!

So I'm under the weather but still going strong! or at least trying to. While I need to rest...resting doesn't really happen in this house..well not very often that is.

I finished some Girlie Goodness Headbands our Double Decker's..seem to be one of the favorites that sell they will be available at our next event...that is if I don't sell them before hand.

A bouquet of Girlie Goodness...how fun!

And then I got this shot of Tyler after his treat...

Mr. Alex had found his thumb...not sure how happy I am about that I'm still battling the THUMB issue with McKenzie sometimes...Oh Well it's cute anyhow.

Hopefully I get better soon because blowing my nose every three seconds is for the birds!!! I don't have time for this I don't have time to be sick!
XOXO Suzanne

Accountability

When I was 28 I got re-baptized and I decided that I wanted to read the Bible from the beginning to the end.  Ok so now I am 33 and I am only in Isaiah.

The problem???

I should be way past Isaiah at this point and I've started re-reading it at least 4 times because I loose track or put down my bible and not read it period for a length of time.

When this happens I feel lost and empty that's how I know that God is real!

So here we go I am going to keep track of my reading through my blog and highlight some favorite scriptures that I find as I go along.

Isaiah 1:18
"Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow;though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool."

Isaiah 7:9
If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.

Isiah 9:6
For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders.  And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

I am at Isiah 29 now so I will post more scriptures as I find them.

A few shots of my big man Tyler...he's so cute.  It's not normal for me to get pics of him.  He is usually trying to get the camera out of my hands.

XOXO Suzanne

Girlie Goodness

Just a few pics of what we've started so far...so much more to come!!!

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We have so many ideas...there is so much more to share...coming soon :)

XOXO Suzanne Lay

Just some Sweetness

Some pics that I've taken over the past few days of my babies. 

So Sweet!!!

I LOVE THEM!!!

XOXO Suzanne